Fragments

I've found myself so utterly broken through the last two years worth of events. One bad relationship dominoed into another bad relationship, into a really shitty job into another bad relationship (actually the worst one so far). So it's just recently that I'm getting back on my feet... and all the masterworks of energy that I'd crafted over years and years of working energy on myself and everything else have all but been extinguished or destroyed. I always play it close to the hilt but this was an all-time low/close call. So now I go to putting the masterwork back up... but I'm starting from the foundations because those are pretty much gone too.

Step 1 is my body. Making sure that every part of me is in my mind and is working as best it can. Then it's getting the path of energy to flow right. Clearing any blockages caused by stress, tense muscles, or existing bad energy. Then it's revitalizing my chakras so they are all strong, all there, and all burning brightly. Then it's linking those together into one cohesive whole. That's... just the begining though. That's enough to be able to start crafting new pieces again. At the moment I'm just on the first step, having just realized I haven't been doing that. So for now it's just pushing the energy into my skin, bones, and muscles so that it has a direct overlay of me. More extensive/bizzare energy work will follow, but for now it's enough to get the basics right. ...I have a long way to go.

On the other hand something that I'd tried before is I think going to work out this time, though the approach is subtly different. An idea I had at one point was to try and make new chakras near my hands to try and make energy manipulation easier. It backfired horribly because concentrating the energy in that spot fucked up the normal flow of energy that passed under that point. ...So now I find myself trying this again but without just massing power there. It's more of using energy to make a gate that binds the flow of energy there with energy to elsewhere, though the focus is centered in the triple burner chakra (middle of the chest, or #4 going bottom to top) both as far as pulling additionally energy out of myself to work with faster, or as far as pulling energy from the world in, to charge/replenish myself when I'm exhausted. The additional bonus if it works is that I tend to hold a lot of stress in my wrists so this may help counteract the kind of blockages that creates.

Time will tell... it always does. In the meantime I've finally written something else other then the preface so writing more now will be easier.